Peace
This evening I did some walking at the Boyson Park trail in Cedar Rapids. It was very relaxing. Everything was so quiet and peaceful. I saw several deer grazing in the adjacent field.
It brought back good memories of times when my family and I used to walk (or ride bikes) on that trail all the time (we used to live right down the street from it)… memories of a time when, for the most part, I was nearly always at peace (with myself, at least).
I asked myself… what has changed? Why do I have so many worries now? Why is it so rare for me to feel a sense of internal peace? The easy answer that popped into my head was… I’m an “adult” now, of course I have more worries!
I’m not really satisfied with that answer, though. Honestly, life hasn’t changed all that much. I think it’s me that has changed. And I don’t like it.
I want to get back to the childlike faith that I used to have. I want to stop trying to make it on my own, and let God be the One in charge!
Posted: June 11th, 2008 under Thoughts.